Deriaz went out to find her while a reluctant Jaggie followed. Lilly wasn't in any of the places that they thought they would find her. None of the places that Jaggie would normally go, should she be upset, where occupied by her broken hearted blonde haired twin. Their house was empty other than a hungry pet snake, the ruins of their broken home in Cerulean Hills where untouched other then the wild flowers that had taken over the ashes and now bobbed there colourful heads in the cool evening wind.
She wasn't in a single place in the Phairlan ward and House Jorasco was equally empty. After searching the dock and every tavern and inn along the harbor wharf they eventually found her in one of the cheap run down tavern inns. In one of the darkest corners of the bar she was sat down, leaning over a table, with her face buried into her folded arms. It was only thanks to the barkeep that she was pointed out to the two warforged. They probably would have never noticed her otherwise.
“Okay, um...” Deriaz obviously hadn't thought this through, entirely. “I don't want her to run away again, so... Maybe we should let her notice us instead of us confront her...?” Jaggie shrugged, not being of much help for this situation, leaving Deriaz to make the careful track towards the darkened end of the tavern pretty much on his own.
As he made his way over to the table, Deriaz considered for a moment if putting two chairs side by side would support his weight so he could sit and talk. Deciding against it, he slowly and quietly attempted to take a seat on the ground at the table. "Lilly?" He reached out and poked an arm hesitantly. Instantly she pulled herself upright, her arms tightly wrapping around her sides has she pushed herself back and away from the table. Her bloodshot eyes, drained of all their tears, fell upon Deriaz.
“You okay?” Deriaz tilted his head slightly.
"What-what do you want?" Lilly's head turned slightly, spotting Jaggie at the bar. "Here to just rub it in that I'm not her anymore?" She pointed at Jaggie who attempted to not notice the anger and hatred that guided that point at her.
"Why would I wanna do that? I'm just here, um, to say hi, is all. . ." He wasn't exactly sure how to answer to that question.
"Hi? Really? How long where you gone and only now you come back to say hi? Okay... yes, Hi. How are you? I'm fine or at least I would be if I didn't wake up one morning to find out I was just some copied image and that my original me wasn't standing over there at that bar acting like I didn't exist."
Deriaz winced, and stared down at the floor for a moment, thinking. "Should I come back another time, maybe. . .?"
Lilly looked away, pinching the bridge of her nose and for a moment closed her eyes, trying to not take out her anger on him. Deriaz didn't deserve it. With a huff of breath she contemplated his last question. "For what purpose? Why are you here, Deriaz....? What do you want from me that she can't offer?"
"Nothing. And there's nothing she can offer that you can't either... Can I maybe explain something before I make things any worse?"
"Go ahead.." Lilly rested her arms onto the table again. She looked tired and defeated but listened quietly.
"First off, I realize this is going to make little sense, but it makes sense to me. Two years ago, I promised her," he pointed to Jaggie, "that I'd protect her, yes? And then when you came along, I still kept the promise. Now that you're two different people, well. . . I know I might not be good at it, but maybe, um. . . Maybe the promise can apply to both of you? I just want both of you to be safe. Of course, if you want me gone, like I've always said, just say so. . . Um. . ." Unsure of how to wrap that up, Deriaz rubbed his arm nervously and turned quiet. Has the quietness continued, and Deriaz's hopes for Lilly to say something went undone, he bumbled onwards.
“I mean, you two don't have to like each other or anything. I can understand if you don't wanna talk to each other. I just, um. . ." He started stumbling over his words, trying to explain himself, but eventually gave up again.
“... I love you...” Her voice was so sad, so broken. Her voice cracked and she could barely speak louder then a whisper at that point. “..But, you can't have both of us...”
"I know I can't. But I want to at least keep both of you safe."
"You know that's impossible to do... You can't be in two places at once."
"I can sure try. Just need to find a way where both of you can get a hold of me and tell me where you are, and I can run over."
"Yeah.." her eyes slowly looked up into his, "but what happens when we both need you at the same time?"
"Then. . . I. . . Uh. . . Um. . ." Deriaz paused. "I run over, pick one of you up, take you to the other one, protect both at the same time."
“Heh," Lilly half smiled at him, "you know that won't always work though, love.... One of these days, you'll have to decide. One or the other.."
"Then I'll decide when that day comes, and I'll choose both. I've chosen an option other than the given ones before, remember? But until then, I can do it. . ."
Trying to still hold onto a smile she murmured, "That's why we love you..." With that Lilly paused for a moment before looking over to Jaggie and waved the 'forged over. “Jaggie,” Lilly said, “take care of him.”
Jaggie's mouth propped open in confusion while Deriaz looked between the two, trying to figure out what was going on. “What do you mean by 'take care of him'?” He asked.
“We,” Lilly gestured between herself and Jaggie. “We can't share you. We'd tear you apart.” She gave a short glare at Jaggie. “Am I right?”
Jaggie fidgeted before nodding, “hai.. She's right, Deriaz.”
Deriaz shook his head. "I don't think so."
Jaggie was still playing catch up on the conversation, "I could never share you. Not even with my own self...."
"You made that clear to me when you kicked me out of my own hall, " Lilly's eyes became distant. "Why else do you think I look like this now?" She gestured to her body which had been polymorphed into a human female. Jaggie only just noticed this. "So I won't be you anymore." There was a silence then. Jaggie's own mind settling in, realizing the path that she had put 'herself' in. "So... how about this," Lilly pointed at Deriaz and Jaggie. "Jaggie promises to take care of you and you keep doing what you do. Protect her."
"But what about you?" Oh, the always caring Deriaz, Lilly thought to herself.
"Me? That's none of your concern anymore. Because I'm not her anymore."
"I know you're not. . . But. . ." Deriaz paused, unsure of how to say what he wanted. He shook his head. ". . . Are you sure? Am I still allowed to at least talk to you? Or do you want me to stay away?" He seemed rather confused, for some reason.
"Do what you want... Just keep your promise to her..."
Deriaz stared at Lilly for a moment, and then nodded. "If you say so."
Lilly simply gave a slight bob of her head before turning her attention to Jaggie, "And you better take care of him," She pointed at the 'forged.
Jaggie nodded, her head tilted toward the floor, "I will..."
And that was that. There was little more to be said. Deriaz reached over to hug Lilly, who took it has their final embrace. “I'll always love you,” she whispered.
Deriaz clinged and hugged maybe a bit tighter than he should have, while nodding and repeating the same words back to Lilly. He let go after a moment, and nodded. "See you around, then? Or. . . Do you want some company for a bit?" He glanced between the two.
"No... Go on, you two." She waved the two of them away so she could be alone with her thoughts.
"Okay. You know where to find me, if you need me," Deriaz nodded, and adjusted his mask. He got up quietly from the table, standing there for a moment as if trying to think of something to say. He drew a blank though, and simply nodded yet again before heading for the door in silence.
Jaggie paused at the table, looking down at her other self. "Why? Why did you give him up so easily for me?"
"Because if we fought we'd only hurt him...." Lilly stared at her folded hands. "Go."
Jaggie hurried towards the door, wrapping her arms around the forearm of the big blue 'forged that was hers and hers alone.